Pro-CHOICE IS The KEY To FREEdumb-Ass

Am I a Meat Eater? Yes...Why? I will REMEMBER to pray before each meal. To thank the soul that was sacrificed to feed me. Why? Every living thing on this planet has a soul. Even the plants. But Meat is Murder? Which is why I think the animals that don’t want to be eaten, fight back. The animals that don’t want to be abused, let me know. But as far as I know, a woman with a brain disorder figured out a humane way to kill a cow. So bring me the cow, bloody and still moo-ing, please & thank you. Cruel, but tasty.  The punishment/blessing from GODDESS, my weight went up for my choice to eat meat. So what about the bugs. They’re just smaller souls in my opinion.

This is just a theory, but if the cute of WEEDS is connected to my DRUG of CHOICE then it's a blessing that it became legal in Oregon on the 1st of October. I consider the other free to me by being Diagnosed BI-Polar? Duality has always played a significant role in my life. How I picked my #+1 guy? It’s a funny story, but I’ll just say this much about him. He is a white male, his last name begins with the letter B and his back had acne when I met him. I once had a female UNITY Minister tell me the secret to beating acne was FORGIVENESS. 

 I was disappointed when I developed it. I started wearing make up, before then I’d never needed it. I thought acne was ugly. Why? Another Stephanie, only a white girl told me how much she hated hers. I felt blessed that I didn’t have a problem with it before then. The moment it developed on my skin, I knew it was a punishment/blessing from GODDESS. It coincided with my first being DIAGNOSED BI-Polar, Manic-Depressive. I stopped letting people take my picture as often. Today I'm not nearly as vain as I was in my younger years. I find beauty in my own scars as well as the scars I see on others.

I've only recently become open to the idea of having a human child in my life. Currently cats make better children for me. They can't speak human as far as I know. But I feel my baby, Nike, speaks to me in her own way all the time. She's loving and protective. She's spoiled and funny. She sits on my legs and refuses to let me move an inch when she thinks I need sleep. I understand the risk of having sex without a condom each time I do so. The message I get from my actions is to become a parent when I feel I am ready. But if I happen to get pregnant, Goddess thinks I can handle the job. 

Personally, I’m a fan of PAIN for Pleasure, not to suffer. Before now, I think I would of been a bad mother if I'd gotten pregnant when I didn't really want to. Also, I know I'm Pro-Choice, I'm also Pro-Life. So I'd keep a baby no matter what my circumstances. It's why I used birth control through college and after consistently. I didn't want to have to make a decision that would have weighed on my soul. I didn't want to blame a child for anything that was my choice to make. Bringing a child into this world that I would have felt forced to do so because of my beliefs was not something I was willing to do to myself or another soul. Today, I go back and forth. I'm with someone who wants the responsibility which helps me to feel secure about my own fears.